You know those days where you dream of a place you want to be someday? Being on the Dave Ramsey plan it's great knowing that you can actually achieve it and not just dream it.
I dream of land! I grew up on a 100 acre farm and I can feel so closed in at times. I imagine that people who grew up in the city are naturally more comfortable with smaller places but not me. I want my own place to walk and get lost in a thought or a prayer - knowing that other people won't be walking by, knowing that I won't be disturbed.
I will pass a big house on lots of land and I imagine myself there. I imagine a huge vegetable garden, flower garden, apple orchard, a bench under the trees and a quite place with God. In fact, this is where I feel closest to God. I would spend hours in the spring and summer laying in the grass, staring at the clouds and having a conversation with God or sit on the back step, playing with the kittens getting lost in my thoughts.
It has been a struggle mentally for me ever since we got married. We moved to a city where we lived in a townhouse where there were people everywhere! I have never felt that I have been able to find that place where I feel closest to God. There isn't a chair in my house or spot in our little backyard that helps me focus. I even miss my country drive to work that I had in Ohio. It took me 30 minutes of smooth country driving to get to work - and I would usually talk to God the whole way. Now I am looking at all the cars around me, making sure I merge lanes, and oh great a traffic jam! At that pace, all I can get out is usually "God protect our driving today". Sigh. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE living in Nashville and being married but this was a challenge I wasn't expecting.
I know it will happen someday, God knows that part of my heart. I've always wanted my kids to have the space to run and play and imagine like I did growing up. What they say is true! You can take the girl out of the country but not the country out of the girl.
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aww.... I love this post. I didn't grow up in the country but I've always had this same longing too. BUT I do love being close to stores and work... so I'm a little torn.
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